i dare you

I got the DC internship. I got into grad school.

So here's the plan.
Intern in DC. Try to find Maryland money for school.
At the end of summer, decide whether to apply for jobs in DC or go get master's.

mountains move one prayer at a time

I accepted Maryland for fall.
I just packed my first box.. of books of course.

here's what I've come to conclude..

I
just
don't
know.

send me an angel...

apparently I need a daily nap.
Ugh.
I think I am killing myself.

I believe love is the answer

I think I've had about 20 life crises since the last entry.
D.C. sounded like they loved me. They are going to tell me mid to late this week yay or nay.
The plans in my head are getting complicated. I cry at the drop of a pin.
Anyway, this week I will decide whether it's DC or Florida.. at least for the summer. Then I think at the end of the summer I will re-evaluate and see which path to take.
We shall see.
The struggles make me stronger.

Yes.

((since this is in double parentheses it doesn't mean anything, but I need to say it. I wish I had someone to help make this decision with. Someone who would be going with me, going wherever I went. Someone to help with the transition. Someone to lean on. End lonely moment.))

There's still time for you

I have an interview with a DC station Wednesday.
It's all happening.
We chase our dreams, we did it all.
We touched the sun.

anyplace is better, maybe we'll make something

Another person I know is under 20 and pregnant. There's just so much life they will be missing. So many things that they need to do for themselves, but they can't.
I just ....
looking for that million dollar sound...

it just gets harder to live this dream you've been believing in.

I hate April. It's the worst month. Everything is squished in.
Which is why I'm going to sleep early.