Monday, April 5, 2010

bright lights

I've lost my motivation again. Argh.

I *should* graduate next spring, but golly, I've got senior-itis. I don't know if it's because I've been working so much (35ish hours, when I'm only supposed to work 25) or I am just T.I.R.E.D. but I've got a methodology due Wednesday and could care less.

I've been having dizzy spells for the last week or so. Vertigo is a more accurate description. I'll be sitting at my computer or desk at work, and the world will start spinning.

So I've been trying to figure that out, by eating more bananas and tofu (not together!) and drinking Powerade like it's going out of style. It's getting better, as in I'm not feeling seasick while lying in bed, but it's definitely weirding me out, and disrupting my schedule.

I also stopped my weekend morning walk, due to said dizziness, which is truly the only way I can get rid of stress.

Did I say that last week my coffeemaker broke? I WAS WITHOUT FANCY COFFEE FOR TWO DAYS!? Thankfully, I did have the office's mud coffee, but I went to Target TWICE for a coffeemaker and ended up staring at them for 30 minutes. I hate how indecisive I am, because I am not a fancy coffeeperson. I just need something that makes something that resembles java, and I'm cool. (Eventually I bought the cheap-o one at Walmart, which I have not given my money to for about two months now)

Needless to say, I feel like I'm running in circles and not getting anything done. I've got this huge research project, a case study, and tons of work drama to sort through...

and all I can think about is how I need to do laundry.

And how I want to volunteer for some Senate campaign this summer. If I'll have a job this summer. Does my thesis topic really work, really? ...